I love music. Often times I find entire songs or parts of songs that I feel like I could have written. It feels like they describe things perfectly for me. Sugarland actually has a strange way of doing this. "I'm slow to trust, but I'm quick to love. I push too hard and I give too much. I ain't sayin' I'm perfect but I promise I'm worth it." For the past few months this line has been replaying over and over in my head. I've been hurt. This may be related to the fact that I love quickly, I love deeply, I love with all my heart. The downside to this is the love and care that I have heightens the amount of hurt I feel from those that I have invested myself in. I tend to expect so much from people and see the potential in them. This then may be why I tend to push for those to reach this expectation and potential. I will be the first to admit I am nowhere near perfect but I am worth it. My desire is to make others happy. I find that this is unfortunately taken advantage of by some. However, that doesn't change my desire to love and make others happy. I still love them. Just as I hold high expectations for others as to how they treat people and their potential, I also hold these expectations for myself. My actions effect those around me. I want to make those around me feel loved and cared for. I will do anything and everything for those I love.
When it comes to love I am reminded of the simple yet amazing truth that God loves me. I've heard this all my life. We teach this to children from an early age by singing Jesus Loves Me. A few years ago I struggled with a very hard time in life. As I often hear God through songs I knew there was no coincedence in hearing the song He Loves Us. The first time I heard it was at a youth camp and I could hear God urging me to believe it. He gave me a new realization of His love for me. I'm afraid we tend to take things for granted and don't take time to concentrate on this unbelievable truth. Tonight please dwell on the understanding that God loves you. There is nothing you can do that will make Him love you less. I leave you this evening with the words of the song that has influenced so much about me for the past 3 years...
He is jealous for me. Loves like a hurricane I am tree, bending the weight His and mercy. When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by Glory. And I realize just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me.
Oh how He loves us so. Oh how he loves us. How He loves us so.
We are His portion and He is our prize. Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes. If grace is an ocean then we're all sinking. And heaven meets earth and I cannot resist as my heart turns violently inside of my chest I don't have the time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way.....
He loves us. Oh how He loves us. Oh how He loves us. Oh how He loves. Yes, He loves us. Oh how He loves us. Oh how He loves us. Oh how He loves.
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